No more Chemo!!

Hello, Well chemo was over March 13, 2013 Yahoo is right so gratful it's over now. I am still feeling like a bad trip on drugs and not feeling good at all. I am sorry I haven't wrote on here for a while just haven't been feeling good. Yeah I rang that bell three times the kids were with me too. So happy they got to be with me to ring the bell. So now they know mommy is on her way of getting well. I just have to do some surgeries the hysterectomy and the bilateral mastectomy yeah I have decided to do the mastectomy because it will save my life I believe or at least prolong my life. If I don't get it done it will be 80% chance of getting cancer again. That is a huge percentage I don't want to deal with right now. I also don't want to have radiation. So going for it. I am pretty nervous about the hysterectomy it's coming up here in April so it's pretty soon actually. Mark is going to take some days off for me and mother-in-law will be here too for me. So I'll have some help. I keep thinking I'll be able to handle the surgeries better than I handled the chemo. I am not sure when the mastectomy is going to happen maybe in June or July there goes my summer huh?! I am still planning on going on vacation to my hometown in June now for a celebration and to see all my family and friends. It will be a good time can't wait to see everyone and have some fun. Then come back to another operation then I can start getting well. I really never thought about how I would feel when I lose my breast, but come to think of it yeah I am going to be a huge bummer going to have some grief the lost of my breast it's going to be a big deal. Yeah it's weird that I didn't think of that before. Mark did and that is why he wants me to do reconstruction. It makes sense to do that reconstruction so I plan on doing that. I hope insurance pays for it that would be great. I'll be looking into it here soon. I am going to a plastic surgeon about the reconstruction. Just got to get the referral from my surgeon first. I see my surgeon in April so we'll see what he says about the mastectomy and when the up coming surgery will be. I am real nervous about that surgery because it's such a big one taking off my breast yikes yeah I am very nervous. Wow when I see it on paper it freaks me out even more. The taking off my breast it's going to happen it's the only way right now. I am sure partial to my breast that is for sure..LOL Going to miss them. Well I'll pull through it and be okay. My kids are doing well they are hanging in there pretty well just going with the flow like kids do. They got good grades in school so proud of them. I love them so much!!!! My husband is doing pretty good as well he got a good paying job finally Yahoo!! Yeah it's great! He is excited to be helping out the family with more funds. He is still in college working on that as well. He passed his test today way to go honey bun!! Proud of you!! Well that is what is going on now in my life. I hope you are doing well and thanks for reading my blog. More later~

Hello! I was doing pretty well until I got a cold with fever. I thought I had an infection, but I guess it's just a cold and hopefully the show will go on this Wednesday for my last treatment. I want to finish so bad don't want to have anything come in my way of that. HOpe my blood work will show good numbers on Wednesday. I want to ring the bell in the cancer room with my kids by my side. I think they'll get a kick out of it too. I believe Mark will even like the sound of that bell ringing so he'll know it's my last treatment. He'll probably will ring it with me. It's been a rough road for my husband as well. He has been worried about me, but he has been so positive and very supportive. Well as some of you know going to have surgery for a hysterectomy in April. Yeah the De Venci robot is going to be doing it's thing on me. My son is pretty excited about it too. We got to see it the other day at the hospital. It's amazing piece of equitment. It does freak me out still some robot working on me. I am sure the doctor will be doing the work, but just an idea of the robot there is weird to me. If it helps the doctor well then bring it on. I guess the bummer part of the surgery is the day before where I have to be cleaned out. I have the yuck stuff to drink. The doctor said I'll want to punch him in the nose for driking that stuff, darn it. The good thing is it will be better in the long run he said. He'll be able to see a lot better and it will be easier for me after surgery. So I guess bring that on too. I'll see how tough I really am. People say how strong I am, but boy I wonder if I can take any more of this. I still have another surgery to go with the mastectomy. Yeah I have decided to do the bilateral mastectomy as well. I am going to miss my breast it sucks so much to be doing all this, but I have to in order to prolong my life. I am not suppose to take to big of glup all at once. I just have to get done with the chemo first. It's reality though for me so it's too hard to not think of all this at once. It's going to happen so better get used to it now. I did think about the time the kids and I had made a lemonade stand and how good I felt then. I wish I was feeling like that again. People say I will feel good again that is the day I will welcome so much. I need to think of that day more than the ill days. It takes me about a week or two to feel better after chemo. Well my kids are doing well they are just about done with the Climb program. They did make worry boxes last week and my daughter is worried that I will die. My poor little sweetheart such a heavy heart for a little girl to carry right now. I do my best and tell her mommy isn't going to die right now. I have a long life to live and I told her I have to watch her be raised and see my grandkids. I can fight this battle and I will win! As for my boy he is more worried about what he can watch on T.V. when he gets home from the climb. He is funny, glad he isn't too worried about mom though. They are excited that we have a membership at the YMCA now. They can't wait to swim and have some fun. Brenna wants to do the gymnastics oh so does Connor. Fun Fun for them. I'll have to sign them up for that real soon. This is a good thing for us as a family too. Now to pull Mark away from his school work..NOT!! that won't happen he is working hard at it. Mark had an interview with the Dept. of Ag and he didn't get the job. It's a bummer he really wanted the job too. Gosh something has to come around for Mark. I've been praying for him to land a good job too. I feel for my husband he has tried for so many jobs, what does it have to take for him to get the job he wants? A friend suggested he do a video of himself answering questions then play it back to see how he did. That way he can see if he makes any mistakes. I wonder what it could be? I wish they would write back and let him know what it was why they didn't hire him so he would know and work on it. Something has to come his way he had an interview on Wednesday just maybe this is the job for him. We'll see I'll keep on praying. Mark is such a great employee I wish the people could see what a great worker he is. One day it will happen for him. So anyway that is that in a nut shell. As for me I am doing okay just a little nervous about the surgery and my last chemo. Just wish the doctor would say no more chemo Net!! That would be music to my ears. Wishful thinking huh? A girl can wish can't she? I have been having some bad thoughts at times. I seem more thinking about dying like getting in a car accident. Driving is a little scary for me these days. I get real nervous when we have to travel to Boise for the Climb program because it's about 30 minutes away so I worry about us making the drive. I don't know why I am so worried about it, but I am. I just don't want anything to happen to my family and I on the road. I guess I should take my xanax when times like that scare me. It might settle my nerves a bit. I have to take the meds for when I have the last chemo as well because I get real worried about all the side effects. Yeah I might take two this next treatment..LOL just kidding I'll make it through this it just takes a lot of courage and strength. I can do this!!! So on that note I guess I'll close for now. Thank you for your support and I'll write more later~ net

Friends!!

Hello! Well it's a week since my last treatment feel a little rough around the edges, but on my way of feeling some what normal again. It sure did help to have Rosa here she was such a huge help. She cooked, cleaned, loved the dog and all of us so much. We were spoiled by her. She was for sure great company. I think even Bailey our loveable pooch misses Rosa. Rosa gave her so much attention it was so funny how Bailey loved it so much. Spoiled bigtime. Well we started off the week visiting my great-uncle John for lunch at Pizza Hut. It was a nice visit he is a good hearted guy. The kids had fun too. Then brought Rosa home she started right in and helped me cook and clean. Then we had a great time on my birthday I had a massage sweet!! Rosa stayed home cleaned my house up. I know we got dressed up and put on make-up and went out for a free birthday breakfast it was yummy. We went to Denny's. Then came home and bought a few things at the store. Rosa made me a mexican dinner and an ice cream cake. The kids had to go to the Climb program so Rosa and I watched a movie together. Then the celebration began when the kids got home. It was a lot of fun making the ice cream cake. We got video of it all. The next day we went to the cancer center and Rosa was with me and Mark too. It went by kind of fast because we were visiting a lot so that is good it went by kind of fast. Like I said in my last post Shelley brought me flowers that was sweet. Had some great support during the transfusion though so grateful for that. Well we came home and made some dinner it was yummy. I was still okay to do things so that was good. Then on Thursday Rosa and I got to go to a mall and go to Ross we bought some clothes nice blouses and rosa even found a nice dress too. It was fun then we made our way to downtown and we walked around that area she saw the Capitol building took some pictures of it too. We had lunch together it was a nice time. Rosa did all the driving so that was great didn't have to worry about that. We made it back home and Rosa probably did some more cleaning and cooking what a great friend she is. On Friday morning Rosa told the kids she would take them to school so we did that and Rosa met the kids' teachers which was so nice. I believe after we got home we watched another movie The Lady in Red. It was cute with Gene Wilder. I started to feel the effects of the chemo then so just a little tired and weird feeling. It didn't stop me we still watched movies had popcorn and just visited. Rosa made some dinner for us all that was yummy. She even made her famous salsa it was the bomb. LOL Saturday the worst day for me Rosa took the kids to the YMCA they all had a good time. She wore the kids out too they had a great time with Rosa. They love her so much. They came back and I just relaxed on the couch we then watched Avatar that is such a good movie. Rosa and Mark loved it I slept through it mostly until my favorite part came up when the gal saves him and says, "I see you." I love that part the most. Sunday I actually felt good enough to go see the movie with the kids and Rosa we went and seen Wreak it, Ralph it was a cute movie. After though I was really tired and just rested on the couch. Monday Rosa went to the airport I stayed home because I had a migraine so my eyes were seeing things a little weird I slept the whole day. Rosa made it home fine and she is now back to work. It was so great having her here I can't express it enough. She did keep saying it went by too fast, but at least we had her here with us and it was so fun. Can't wait to go back home and see her and all my family and friends it will be such a great celebration. Well I have one more chemo left to go. Looking forward to ringing the bell at the cancer center. I am going to ring it loud and hard too. I will be so excited to have chemo behind me. Yahoo is right!! Well it's been a great week considering having chemo, but had a great friend with me and it sure was great to have her love and support. I feel blessed!! It's great to have all the support I've been getting from family and friends so I feel very loved. I'll write more later~ net

2 am post

Hello again! Hey all I am up at 2 am can't sleep due to going to the bathroom a lot. That is what chemo does to the body. Also the steriods keep one awake as well. Yeah yesterday was chemo day. So it's going to be a few days of a little hell, but this too shall pass right?! I don't feel to bad at this minute, but it's coming soon. I did have a good day yesterday inspite of chemo. I got some beautiful flowers from a gal named Shelley. I got to be introducded by her yesterday we have been talking on the phone for some time now and she came to see me yesterday. She is such a lovely lady. She had ovarian cancer last year and is doing very well now. So happy for her. I also had of course my dear friend Rosa with me yesterday. My hubby Mark and my nurse navigator Nanette with me too. Oh and of course the sweet nurses Sarah and Vicki. So it was a great day actually. I sure do love the support! Well one more chemo after this and I am done! Whoot Whoot!! Going to be a great day!! I am going to have my kids there when I ring the bell I decided. Because my son asked me today if I get to ring the bell yesterday and I said no not until next time. So yeah I am going to take them out of school so they can see mama is done with chemo next month. It will be a good day for the whole family. Acutally they won't miss any school because they get out at 2 pm and I don't leave there until about 2:30 pm so it's all good. Maybe I'll even let the kids ring it with me. They will get a kick out of that. I can't tell you enough how much my friend is spoiling me so much my dear friend Rosa. She is cleaning my house, cooking dinner for me well I cooked dinner last night felt pretty good to do it. I made a new recipe had to try it out. Rosa gave me a massage last night felt so good getting that chemo to circulate some. I have to drink tons of water too at least for 48 hours after chemo that is what the doctor said to me last treatment. So going to do what he says so I can not have such hella of a time this go around. We'll see if that works. I got a pamplet about the YMCA has a group that excercise while in treatment and who has breast cancer. I called them yesterday and thinking about going to it. It would be so good for me to do that right now. There is free child care too. The kids would love to go and do things as well. I think when I am done with chemo I am going to be a member of the YMCA the kids can swim, do actitives and have tons of fun after school. Well in the meantime I'll go to it now and have some more support. Speaking of the kids they sure do like the CLIMB program they come home and tell me their time there, it's so great. I hope they are learning a lot so proud of them. The bummer part is Brenna is having some separation anxiety right now from mommy and daddy. She doesn't like to see us go bye bye. It breaks my little heart. I don't like to see her like that at all. I hope she gets to be okay with things soon. Connor seems to be doing pretty well with us leaving, but I am sure it bothers him when Brenna cries big crocadile tears. This is been going on now more so that I have been in treatment too and losing my hair poor sweetie she is worried about mommy and even daddy too. She loves us so much and us her. We love our kids so much!! We don't like to see them in pain at all. I hope once chemo is over with she'll feel much better. Only one more month to go. Whew! Well I had a good counseling session with Lesa yesterday she talked about Future tripping she likes to call it that. We all get into the thinking about the future and we need to get in the present. So she gave me some tools to reel myself back into the present. Now some of the future thinking I do is the thought of dying or the bad thoughts that come with having cancer such as going to have those surgeries soon. I do think of good future stuff like my going home and seeing all my friends and family can't wait for that day. Or the high school reunion coming up next year. Those are good future tripping because they keep me motivated on the positive. My dear hubby even had a cousneling session with Lesa and I am so happy they spent a long time together in group too. I am dying to know what types of things were said, but he didn't come out and say too much about his session except about the pamplet he gave me about the YMCA. So that is good. He'll open up to me about it I am sure. I got him another session again for next chemo day too. He just rolls his eyes at me, but he'll do it. I think he enjoyed talking to Lesa so that is a good thing. Mark needs support as well and who else to be giving it to him then her. Well the bills keep rolling in, but Mark said that is just the way it goes right now we have to deal with it. I have to make some calls this morning about all the co-pays we paid last year for taxes. I am gong to be busy with that tomorrow got my work cut out for me. I won't be any good if I don't get back to sleep though. So I best try and sleep again. I'll write more later~ net

Birthday!!

Hello, Yes my friend Rosa made it here on Monday so happy to have her here!! When I picked her up we went to see my uncle John in Boise he is doing well he is my great-uncle the brother of my grams. We went out to lunch to Pizza Hut the kids love pizza and Rosa and I love the salad bar. We had a nice time visiting. Then we came home and we were going to go bowling, but there were leagues going on so no bowling for us. So we had a nice dinner then just watched the Biggest Loser. On Tuesday had a great Birthday with my family and Rosa. The first thing on the list was a lovely massage felt so great. She even charge me a birthday rate that was so sweet of Tammy. So that was a great start for a birthday celebration. Then Rosa cleaned my house which was so great loved it! You all know how I hate cleaning house..LOL Rosa and I went to Denny's for my free breakfast it was nice company with Rosa. We then went to Costco for some chicken got to love costco! We then had to get all the fixings for the famous ice cream cake. I made my own buttercream frosting so it was even better Yum Yum!! Oh I went to the post office and mailed yes 15 letters to all my friends..hey I love to write so have to send snail mail. Then we went to pick up my sweeties from school. They were so excited to be home. Well then daddy took them to the CLIMB and Rosa and I had time to watch a movie Fire in the Sky. Rosa never seen it before so it was a good one for her to see. We had popcorn too. Then we went on a walk around my block yeah had to take my dog Bailey as well. Rosa made me some enchiladas they were excellent so yummy. When the kids came home we made the ice cream cake it was a lot of fun. I have video on Youtube and Facebook so it's pretty funny Brenna's look on her face is priceless. The cake was so good I am going to make one for Brenna's birthday she loved the idea. So I had Rosa and I make a video together and I put that up on Youtube and Facebook as well. It was a cool thing though when Google wished me a happy birthday that was totally cool. I was so shocked they did that and was in tears because of that...totally neat!! Mark says because I have an account with them so they put up your birthday wish. I just loved it so much!! I had a great birthday so I am very blessed to have such a wonderful family and friend in Rosa. Also I had so many birthday wishes on Facebook just loved them so much. I wanted to reply to each and everyone of them too. I think it's a nice touch because I am so grateful for all the support I am getting. People are being so great to me and to my family. Well today is chemo day not looking forward to it, but just one more done after this treatment. So that is great news!! I will have a lot of support today from Rosa, hubby, Lesa, Shelley and my nurse navigator Nanette too. Shelley is a lady that is helping me get through this she went through ovarian cancer last year and is doing very well. She is coming to introduce herself today. I talk to her on the phone, but haven't met her yet. So that will be nice. I can use all the support I can get these days. Well I am not sure if I'll write more while in chemo mode, but I'll try to let you know how I am feeling. It's a little rough road being in chemo brain don't feel like doing to much. Rosa is going to get me to go on more walks this week, but we'll see how I feel though. I have to push myself to some extent especially walking would be so great. I am so glad to have this help here this time with Rosa it makes me feel so loved. She is a great friend!! Well I think I'll get ready for my chemo now. I'll write more later~ net Thank you to all my supporters. LOVE LOVE LOVES to all!!!

My Kids

Hello! Well I was miss informed the Astroid already passed us on the 15th silly me. I guess we are safe for now. Well today is the day I pick up my friend Rosa from the airport so excited to see her. This will be the first time someone from California has come to see me. Totally cool! We will have a great time together at least for a couple of days, then the chemo will kick in and kick my butt. That is okay I got this though going to fight all the way until it's over two more treatments that is all. I am going to tease the doctor on Wednesday and say let's just call it good doc and quit now. I might get a laugh out of him I hope. It would be better if he said yeah let's us be done now. What a great wish that would be. Well I am excited that it's my birthday love my birthday it's fun to celebrate it especially now. My husband was sweet and said what am I going to get you for your birthday. I told him the massage is enough he said that was for Valentine's day I said no you can combine them. He doesn't like that too well. Hey it saves us money too. Well I get to see my great-uncle John today he lives in Boise. It will be nice to visit him he is a very kind man. He is my gram's brother. He is so kind and thoughtful he said he wants to help me when he needs help himself. We can help each other that is what we'll do. Well my ankle to bothering me for some reason don't think I did anything to it, it must be old age..LOL It will make it hard to walk with Rosa she loves to walk. I'll get by some how. Well have I told you how much I love my children? Connor is growing up to be such a fine young man so loving and kind very sweet boy. My daughter is funny and has a roar like a little Leo the lion. Got to love little girls. I'm so proud of them they are going to the CLIMB program and really enjoying it a lot. The other day my son asked the counselor "do we have to talk about our feelings." I thought that was so cute. I tell them all the time they can talk about their feelings to the counselor, but Connor says somethings are private mom. I respect his feelings. They had a tour of the radiation room and Connor was full of questions for the doctor. They all know he is going to be a scientist. Brenna on the other hand is a little bit shy so she'll speak up a little later. I am so grateful for the program it is such a blessing. The kids are also excited about Rosa coming too. They ask when she will be here. They love friends like mommy does. I over heard Brenna talking the other day and she told Connor that she liked her school here. I think that is great so I think we should stay put for a while, sure moving back to California would be ideal for me to be close to family and friends, but we have to do what is best for the kids right now. I don't want to up root them now. They need their friends at a time like this. My kids go to an all boy class and an all girl class. I think it's working out very well too. They seem to like it a lot. My son wants me to talk about cancer in his class. I am thinking about doing it with the help of my friend/counselor Lesa. I'll talk to her about it this Wednesday. I really want to do this for my boy so he will get a better understanding of cancer. He likes my bald head a lot. I asked them if they wanted me to wear a wig to get Rosa at first Connor said yes, then said no mom don't wear anything, but little Brenna said mom bring a wig in case. I want to make them happy so I'll do both. Well Mark seems to be doing a little better he has had some good times this weekend we are talking more in the morning hours about how things are going with him. He will be talking to Lesa soon too. I hope that goes well for him. I told him to be straight forward and talk about his feelings. He just rolled his eyes at me. Men! you can't beat their feelings out of them or can you? Mark is so logical it's a little bizarre he needs to shed those layers down and get to some deep seeded issues. I know he has them deep down because he has a lot of anger that comes from some where it could be that he didn't have his father around while he was growing up. His brother dying very young and Mark had to carry that burden around all his life. They weren't really allowed to talk about it the mom was quiet about the cancer. Mark will work it out I am sure and it will be good for him to talk. Well it's 6 am I should get back to bed need some rest have a big day today. More later~ net

My Friend Rosa

Hello! Oh man have I been so tired the last few days. I really have been knocked down on my butt and it has been the third week of chemo. I thought I would start feeling good, but no just a round of kick annette's butt week. I slept for the most part for two days. I guess I really needed the sleep so I went with it. Saturday I felt a little better, but wasn't ready to run any races. It's Sunday right now about 4 am in the morning. I woke up because my daughter was coughing. Oh boy a sick child that isn't what I need right now. I don't want any infections when having chemo. I did have a dream where I had to take a bunch anti-biotics...yikes hope that dream doesn't come true. I also had another dream that every time I touched the ground it would burn me and everyone else around me. I just wonder about that astroid that is coming close to the earth. Yeah I am freaked out about it. Have you heard about it an astroid is coming very close to Earth hope it passes us by. With all these meteors coming lately it just makes me wonder. It seems like I am worried a lot these days about things. I know should read the serenity prayer. There are some things I just can't control right?! I have been having lots of thoughts about dying young these last week. I even called the hotline to talk it out. I guess it goes with having cancer I suppose especially getting cancer at a young age..hey I am still young..lol even though 50 is knocking on the door. Can't believe I'll be 50 in wow 3 years. That blows, me away! I hate those bad thoughts I am suppose to be thinking about Hawaii when I get those kind of thoughts going through my mind. I also have been really worried about my kids too. I just hope they stay healthy and happy. Having kids sure makes one worry it does me anyway. There is a lot of joy in having children too. I think I'll stick to the joy part. It's easier on the ole' brain. Well I'll be celebrating my birthday on Tuesday that is if the Earth is still in one piece on Monday. Yeah my friend Rosa plans to make me a nice dinner and make an ice cream cake. Yeah I know I told this all before it is just so sweet of her. Monday Rosa will be here can't wait to see her. You just don't realize how neat it is to have a friend here when you are going through chemo it means the world to me. Friends do something for you when in times like this they lift your spirits and spoil you. I am going to love having my friend here so much. The kids are excited for her to come as well. They keep asking when she'll be here. I hope today I feel good enough to clean the house and get ready for her. I know Rosa she won't care if the house is dirty, but still we want it to look nice for her. I am going to have a massage for my birthday that will be lovely can't wait for that. Rosa and I plan to go to the movies or go bowling that night should be fun. I would love to take the kids, but they have school the next day so it looks like it's just Rosa and I for that night. Then Wednesday is chemo day. I am thinking to have Rosa come into my counseling session with me. I'll see what Lesa will say or if Rosa wants to even do that. Mark is going to see Lesa as well that day. I hope he opens up to her and talks about what is bothering him. He needs a support team as well. I hope he reaches out and doesn't fight it. He had a little bit of a hard time yesterday, but he kind of pulled it in and had a better day. He just wants the peace and quiet to study. It's hard for him he is working full-time and going to college man he has a lot on his plate right now. I go and to top it off didn't finish the laundry for him. I did all his clothes, but man it was a chore for me I hated doing it too for some reason. It seems like the easiest chores are so hard for me lately. If I could I would have someone else do the cleaning for me. Yep I am not afraid to say that let them have it I'm done with housework. I don't mind doing the dishes making sure my kitchen is clean, but man when I am in chemo brain oh man I can't do a thing. I tried to find a cleaning service for my area, but they are booked up so no one can come clean my house. They do it for free too. A few people said they would, but I feel weird asking them to clean my house. I was proud of myself the other day I did the vacuuming, dishes, mopping and dusting last week of course I felt a lot better than this weekend. I am getting the kids to help out too. Making sure they stay on top of their rooms. I don't want them filthy like sometimes they get. There is no reason why they can't stay clean. Connor wants to make an allowance so if he keeps his room clean then that would be great. I think he would love having an allowance that gives him some pride in his work. Now to speaking about how much of funds he will get have to talk to daddy on that one. I think what I'll do today is make a chore chart with the kids and if they keep their rooms clean every week then they'll get an allowance. I know I should have been doing this a long time ago, but every time I do a chart it just goes out the window for some reason. I don't keep up with it, but I am going to this time. It's going to be one of my goals to better ourselves in 2013. My good friend Jessica gave me an idea too. She told me she was doing things for herself in 2013 like put on make-up and earrings every day. Even if you are home just put on some make-up to feel better about one self. I don't do that shoot I don't even put make-up on when I go to the store. Shoot I have new wigs and a bunch of new make-up I need to do that for myself. So that is going to be a goal of mine too. It will lift me up so much and maybe I should wear a wig more often too. Mark bought me a wig cap so now the wig might feel some what better for me. The only thing is Connor kind of likes me being bald he says he likes me to show off my bald head. I guess he is getting used to it now. Now for Brenna she likes me to cover my bald head she tells me to put the hat back on even when it's hot outside. Yeah not a fan of the bald head. I am going to make a point to show Brenna that I am putting on make-up every day so she knows that taking care of yourself is important and doing things for you is a good thing. I think I'll even get her involved in helping me put on my make-up. She'll love that so much. She gets a kick out of make-up so that is good she is all girl. My little man is all boy. Oh I got a great birthday gift from my friend Jessica. You see I asked her a few years ago to do an astrological reading of my children so I could understand them a lot more. Well it was in the mail I finally got them. It's exciting to read about your child astrology. I can maybe better understand them. I know some people don't believe in it, but I was raised on this by my grams so it's interesting to me. My grams did a reading for me and it was dead on too. I loved it wish I still had the tape of that reading. It was so right about me it made me cry not sure why I cried, but I did. It was very touchy I think that is why I cried it really hit a nerve in my soul. I look forward to reading the charts soon to know just a little bit how my children tick. fun stuff. Well it's getting earlier in the morning it's about 6 am now time for me to go back to bed. I am still wide awake though knowing me I can find other things to write about, but I'll close for now. More later~ net