Surgery date

Hello! Well I know when my next surgery will be September 18th. Yep another surgery geez I think I am done after that. Yeah going to put this whole cancer thing away and get on with my life. I am not going to think about it or let it run my life. Some of my nurse navigators ask me to participate in cancer functions, but I just rather not think of any of it. Now I might walk for Susan G. Komen foundation one day, but as of this moment no more c word for me. I'm done and ready to face the world with an open mind and happiness in my heart. Putting it behind me will let me do just that. One of the things I plan to do for myself is go back to school. Yeah I start very soon and looking forward to it. The whole family is going to school pretty cool really. I plan to take my administration medical assistant course. I want to work in the front office. I believe I do a good job at it and I enjoy helping patients coming in the office. I don't mind all the paper work either it keeps me very busy. I miss working for the GI lab years ago it was such a good job miss the people and the work as well. So once I am done with my certificate I plan to go back to work. It will be great to go back to work now that my kids are older. It will be something for me to do for myself. I am doing a lot for myself these days. I am trying to lose weight so far I am down 23 lbs. I have a ways to go, but I am going to do it this time for my health and my sanity. I just want to look HOT damn it!! It would be so nice to fit in my size 18 jeans I have in my closet. Oh no that isn't where I am stopping at, I am going to try to get to a size 12 now I would be HOT in a size 12. I wouldn't even mind being a 14. I am working on it and doing very well with my eating. I am in that mind set and it's working great. I have though decided to put away the scale it wasn't doing me any favors. I actually would weigh myself every day and I would be disappointed. The scale is going away for a month now. I am going to have my husband hide it from me. My mom told me to do that a long time ago, but did I listen? no. I am now though. I will weigh-in again on September 28th early morning to see how I did. So mark your calendars sure hope I do well. I have measured myself also and I know that I have already lost an inch around my neck, waist and hips. YAHOO!! I know wasn't suppose to measure was I? I am eager to lose the weight but not wanting to wait for it to come off so slow. It's going to take me about a year to get this weight off. SIGH~~ Okay I'll wait for it to come off slowly that is all I can do at this time. I've made some great changes in my diet. I am not sure if I mentioned this before if I have sorry for the repeat. I stopped drinking soda, no more creamer so no more coffee, I drink green tea, drink skim milk, eat oatmeal every day, have stevia instead of sugar, park as far from the store as possible and I am doing a lot of walking. FEELS GREAT making these changes. I am eating a lot healthier and I am counting all my calories on Myfitnesspal.com it's a great site reminds me a little of Facebook though. I haven't wrote much on FB lately I will put this up on FB though like to post my blog online. I hope I encourage someone today or put a smile on their face. Well it's almost 1 am here in Idaho. So more later~ net

Ain't nobody got time for that!

Hello, Well down a few pounds like 22 pounds. But gain 3 lbs. back a little bent out of shape on that though. I just have to get back with it and keep walking and eating healthy. I am loving this new site it's called My fitness pal.com. It is really helping a lot. I put all my food in my diary and track all my exercise daily. I have decided to quit weight watchers and just stick with my pal. It will save me money in the long run and my pal is free. LOVE FREE!!! You get really good support on there as well. I love to see all the success stories myself because it keeps me motivated. I might have slip up today, but that is okay I'll get back to it tomorrow. Yeah I ate some chocolate and had a coke. I am not proud of myself, but I did it and I am admitting to it. Tomorrow will be a better day. I tracked it in my food diary today. I went over my calorie goal. Just have to do more walking tomorrow. I plan to get up and take my morning walk with my dog. I love having my time together just her and I. The kids are sleeping and I get to have me time. LOVE IT!! Well let's us see what else is happening. I am feeling much better after my surgery doesn't hurt any more and I got my prosthesis very nice silver lining perky breast again. LOVE IT!!I feel like a new woman with those I tell you feels so good to have boobs again. Well I've decided to put the cancer behind me and get on with life. Some of my nurse navigators are calling me up and asking me to go to a cancer function or class and I am not interested I want to get on with my life and not think of the cancer. I had a art class the other day for cancer and didn't go, maybe I should have might have learned something about art, but just wasn't into it. I didn't want to paint about the cancer just want it to be done. Move on and live life to the fullest. So the best thing for me to do for myself is go back to school. I start classes very soon and I am looking forward to it. Yep this mama is going back to school and soon I'll graduate and then I'll get back into the work force. I miss working outside the home. I haven't work outside the home since 2007. Yeah my kids are growing up and time for me to get back into life and live a little. I loved staying home with my children it was the best thing that I could have done for them and me so blessed to be able to say that I got to do that. Now though is time for me to get back in life and see other people and bring home some bacon. Yeah that will help Mark out bringing in an income too. We do want to buy another house one day soon. To do that I need to be working. First thing first have to finish school. I am going to get my administration medical assistant front office. I am looking forward to it too that is my experience lies is in the front office. I like to do that type of work the most. I get to help the patient and still do all the front office work. I really enjoyed my job at the GI lab in my former city. It was a lot of fun too got to meet some great people and just be able to socialize love that the most. I am excited to get to be in school to meet new students, make new friends and learn something too. Not too keen on all the studying and not seeing my babies off to bed at night, but in the long run it will be worth it. That is what I keep telling myself with Mark's studies. It's every weekend he has to study it's rough on us all really. I keep reminding myself that it will be worth it in the long run. He may even get a raise once he graduates. Mark informed me a few days ago that he wants to go for his Master's degree. I had no idea he was planning that, but I am happy for him, but again all the studying is driving us crazy. Especially him he works full-time and goes to school full-time damn he is one tough cookie. I couldn't do it at least I don't think so I tried to do it when at college, but became depressed too exhausted. I am very proud of him though very proud. I can't wait for his graduation day it will be very emotional for me. He is sacrificing his time for his degree right now and that cuts a little bit. I just keep thinking this too shall pass and it will be so wonderful when he receives his diploma. I will be very proud of myself when I get mine as well. I am going to be getting a certificate though, but that is okay I just don't have it in me to do a bachelor's degree right now. I think one at a time in the family is enough to get a bachelor's degree once Mark is finished I may think about it then. So we'll see. Until then going to feel it, live it and love it it's all about school right now all of us are going to school. We are going to be a very busy family. I think I can like that a lot better than being bored. There will be no time for being bored now. Well as for my health I am feeling good. I did go to the dermatologist a couple of weeks ago and they found a mole that needs to be removed. He said doesn't look like skin cancer, but we need to make sure it's okay. Gosh I hope it comes back benign "Ain't nobody got time for that." LOL No more cancer okay Lord please dear God. Well Mark had a good point if I did have cancer the chemo probably ate it up so I should be okay. It just bothers me a little bit. I want to put cancer behind me and move on with life so lets do that okay dear God. I do have to have a hysterectomy next month then after that I am good to go live a cancer free life. Amen! Can't wait until that is over with. My mother-in-law is in California so she won't be here to help me. She had surgery today on her back so she is out of commission right now. So all I'll have is my honey bun to help me. I might be able to get a friend to help me out. Also get the meal train help as well. They give meals to family members who are going through rough times. It's a great service love not having to worry about dinners. Well if I am going to go on my walk in the morning I better get to bed. Thanks for reading my blog and for all the support a girl could ask for. more later~

Losing weight!

Hello! Well things aren't as bad as the last post. My mom doesn't have diabetes it's not as bad as she thought. Mark does start his new job today at the State excited for him he'll probably love it. Make him feel important. I am still starting school in September and having my hysterectomy same month, but I am sure I can work around my school with it. I hope! Good news I am losing weight lost 2 lbs. yesterday total of weight loss 8 lbs. LOVE IT!! I had to lose 108 lbs. so 100 more to go I can do this. I am really focused on it too. I am walking every morning I walk to the school and around the track feels great to get the exercise. My dog Bailey loves it too. I am keeping a video diary of my progress so hopefully this time next year I'll have the 100 pounds behind me and I can see the process. Will be so nice to be down to a size 12. I want to get down to 170 lbs. Shoot at this point I'll be happy to be under 200 lbs. I've been over 200 lbs. for so long it's such a shame. For my 8 pound weight loss bought three blouses that were 2x instead of 3x happy about that small feat. LOL it's the little things in life that make us happy. I can't wait to wear my new blouses. I know I shouldn't buy me any new clothes, but I couldn't help it had to get a little something to celebrate my victory of a whopping 8 lbs. LOL I am proud of myself darn it. My dilemma is I am not sure I want to stay with Weight Watchers right now. I am doing well on the My Fitness Pal. com I will make that decision when my 10 weeks are up. Not sure I really want to spend $119 dollars on another 10 weeks when I am doing it with help from my fitness pal.com. Also I don't like their scales as much as mine it says I lost more weight on mine, maybe they have their scales rigged or something so you don't lose that much weight so fast. When I weighed in the last time I was 282. my scale said 280 lbs. that is a lot better than the 282 lbs. So when I go on Wednesday it might not show I lost the eight pounds..and that will be a bummer. I will get discouraged I am sure. So I think I've made up my mind and I am going to lose weight on my own. That solves that problem. So anyway things are going pretty well with my family except my brother-in-law is very ill has cancer all through his body brain and spine. I really don't think he has much time to live it's very sad. I will keep praying for him. My kids are doing well getting ready for school soon. The whole family will be in school soon. Mom and dad too. I am looking forward to my new school and learning as much as possible. It's going to be so good for me to do something for myself. The kids are getting older and now it's time for mommy to take care of herself. Losing weight whoop whoop!! Going to school and exercising too. I am feeling a lot better than I did a few months ago. It's like night and day how I was and man do I feel so much better feels awesome!! That chemo was horrible I don't want to do it again that is for sure. Let's hope I don't have that to deal with that again ever. OH yeah our renters didn't skip out on us so that is good news we still have them renting our home. So grateful for that. Mark and I were also concerned about what we were going to do with the kids when I go to school and I believe that is all taken care of we believe Mark gets to go in early to work and get off early too. That would work very well. I go into school at 5:30pm so he'll be here in time for me to go to school. So that is good news. He'll know more today though can't wait to hear what his hours will be. I haven't heard when my surgery will be yet I had that Doctor's office cancel my August 6th appointment until the 26th. I'll know then when I'll have my surgery on that day. I sure hope the school helps me get my school work done and I don't miss too much of my homework. I might call my advisor today and tell her what is going on we'll see. Thinking positive about it. Well I think I'll close for now and keep on losing that weight!!! more later~